Time sure does fly by doesn’t. Well I have been gone from the blogging world for over two years. I figured I must explain before I continue. So here it goes this may be a long one ;).
As most of you know I toward the end of my last post (besides the one I just posted which I must have forgotten to post). I had been working a job which at that point I was very uncertain of; it was not what I had expected. After that I had quickly began to move of the ladder and was investing my time into my career. Between my career and my family I did not leave much room for God beside the causal, “I love you God” and thanking Him for everything. I went to church or watched and listened to sermons depending on what point in time you would rewind to.
As most of you who know me know that I consider myself and all or nothing kind of gal and well work was becoming my all and my relationships with family, friends, and even God were becoming nothing. As most Christians know when we leave God out of the mix well life gets really crazy. Tasks that are easy with God on our side soon become more hard, time consuming and even unbearable.
Although, my career was soaring to the top I was struggling to stay above water. I tried to piece meaning to things that were meaningless and my family and the things that mattered were sinking. So after 2ish years I talked it over with my husband and decided to quit my job.
Which at first was great but soon I had come to realize that I have some tough work ahead of me. Relationships that I had damaged because I was too consumed with work needed mending and I need to reestablish my role as a mother to my children.
Additionally, I had placed my identity in my work, I was good at what I did and I owned it. I had to take on a new but old identity. At this point I began to question my intentions…. Was I quitting because it was too tough? Do I really need to stay at home or so I go back?
Looking back now, I think I was just scared of what the future would hold the unknowns because unlike the cooperate world there is no next step to progress, there is limitless but unknown possibilities for the future.
I was moving from a position where my skills and knowledge helped me succeed to a position that is highly critiqued, underpaid, and lonely for the time being; or at least a lot of work with repairing damaged relationships.
So that about sums it all up to about now.
These days I have been holding tight to the following scriptures…
In the same way the Spirit also helps our weakness; for we do not know how to pray as we should, but the Spirit Himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words;and He who searches the hearts knows what the mind of the Spirit is, because He intercedes for the saints according to the will of God.And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose. Roman 8:26-28 NSAB
He heals the brokenheartedand binds up their wounds Psalm 147:3
Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.Proverbs 3:4-6
Well friends any who… all that just to say I am back. Look forward to chatting with you again and as always.. Be Blessed.